who am i? sometimes i also wonder...
i used to ask my friends...do u tink u noe me well enough? actualli i oso duno the ans myself....
my life rot...a life that no one wants.....with a broken family....since then i changed...all these occur during the year of my 'o' level...and that explains why my results sux...
my life have never been smooth then....everyday was scoldings....
now i remembers...ever since sec 2...my mum never really wants to listen to my problems...so i had no choice...got to keep everything to myself.... till then in sec 4...i met my god sis- jane lim she's the one who encourage me in everithing i do~ mayb i was "spoilt" by her...every time i will rely on her and only share my problems with her...
however since i enter the poly life...we were brought furthur apart...now...she have no much time to tok to me...then u will wonder...who i tok to....?
i have no one to tok to....so instead of toking to human i tok to my pets....my instinct told me they noe me, they understand what i tok...mayb was due to watching too much cartoons... i duno...
people thought i should b contented with a new h/p and mp3 as my birthday presents... but i'm not....it's been 2 years ever since i enjoy my birthday...really....no matter how hard my friends tried to make me happy...i am not really so~
i duno why?....
today...one of my students taught me something... One must live life to the fullest....
i'm trying to....to many people, i'm cheerful....but am i realli so? my friend like to call me a housewife, cause i cook...and do housework... actualli i shudn't mind it alot...coz' i knew she's jk.... i cook coz i love to....but...ever since last year...i realli hated cooking....coz' it's miserable....
i remembered there was i time i told my mum's friends i do the ironing of clothes...ever since then....my mum forced me to iron and if i dun...she will provoke me saying that who ask me to show off etc....
but one thing i wish....grow up, wk and buy a huse n live all by myself.... i ever wish to b a teacher....but nw my visions are unclear...i duno why.........
look back now....my life realli sux...
i knew i've changed...but duno where?
my friends...i wonder who??? i noe there r alot of ppl concern abt me....but...who r my friends? i have a friend who lied to me...now i realli hate her...but
there's smtin more then hate....is heartbroken.....
* trust me...when i writing this...i'm crying*
now...how much u understands me? i'm sure u wondering...so dear friends...please treassure ur life....