has been real moody these days~ m reali reali upset and disappointed.... but there's a saying that says... we need to feel the feeling of sadness to know how does happiness feels... been crying for the past 2 days... reali sad...heartbroken... i realise...when bad things happen it will be more than one...
guess i gona miss the IT fair this year... >.< :'( when when when will i get my sony VAIO red lappy?? WHEN?
when when when? when will my good frenz get their groups??
this is RANDOM... will there be anyone remember my birthday next year?? there's some one promised to gv mi a bdae gift...lol~ but hw to gv mi? FEDEX~LOL!
from tomorrow onwards... i will nt tok to mum~ other than answering her qns... >.< ME~ reali angry wif her.....
Friday, November 28, 2008
5:04 AM
.:life is nothing but stress:.
y everione is so irritating~ now wat...nagging at my phone bill? why bother?? I AM THE ONE PAYING~ who cares?~ is lyk u nagging at mi spenditure~
u oni pay for my daily expenses... my sch fees... everitin~ i pay~ and of coz~ the lappy i wan~ i cn pay too if u r so unwilling to get for me... who cares... as if i cnnt pay for myself~
STOP!!! STOP!!!! STOP!!!! YOU ARE REALLY IRRITATING ME~ i am so stress now~ dun add in those boring n un-useful stuffs... since u taking my money to pay for my bills...GO AHEAD!
i wun heart pain for such things... coz i can awaes earn the money back~ it's not life and death issues~ so dun blow the matter up!
i have my life... *feel like SCREAMING and CRYING to release my stress(ES)*
2:12 AM
is it the end of the world?
been so busy and one word...STRESS! surprisingly...i am nt stress for myself, my stuffs...but STRESS for others... 2dae originali i am reali happi~ was jk ard...loling alot...till in the aftnoon...pardon me...but i am real piss off by sm idiot telling mi to shut up... PARDON ME~ BUT NO ONE IN THIS WORLD HAD USED THAT 2 WORDS ON ME!!!...n WHO ARE U TO ASK MI TO SHUT UP??? MY BOSS?? MY PARENTS??? MY TEACHERS??? ILL MANNERED! BTW...DUN THROW UR FREAKING TEMPER ON ME!!! COZ' I DID NO WRONG....
ok... *cool down cool down* now wat... last min ask ppl to 'get out' in a nice way? juz coz 2 other ppl show their temper? or wat?...y u care rite? i duno la~ ok~ i noe...it's none of my business...so i shall not care...all i wanna care now is...where my 2 frenz go....that's all~ FULL STOP~
hmm~ ok~ next...all i wanna say is...till today...then i finali c~ wat i've achieve in my life...i mean my frenz... n saeing it in general~ i nid to think twice nw... reali~ think twice~~~
mai gal...dun get upset ya~ it's all my fault...yup~ n yup...everitin's gona b the way it is.... =] will help u till the end~
Thursday, November 27, 2008
3:41 AM
funi posts...
mel~ =]
my gd fren~ =]
some pics i stole frm diff blogs...
my sec sch frenz =]
3:30 AM
truth to my heart
don't let me alone... coz i'm afraid to lose u... the harder i struggle to grab u~ i furthur u go...
will you think for me for once... or juz let my tears rolled by...
to someone.... if you haven realised...u changed alot... certain things u said... u nv kip to ur word... dun pick up calls...dun reply sms...dun mean anitin~ at least tell us u cnnt make it for once... dun let mi wait and wait...hoping u will come
u've changed u've changed... but u nv admit~ i'm sad but i've no one to talk to...no one~ i told ya before...warn ya before...but...nthin changed...
for one person is correct... people changed...things changed... u may nt weigh as much in the person's heart as yesterday~
this post is dedicate to someone... if u tink it's u...then it's u~ if nt~ then nt u~ =]
Wednesday, November 26, 2008
10:59 PM
~happy and upset~
finali OSIP confirm le~ goin vietnam... shud b frm 1st mar to 30 apr...but may extend~ 1 or 2 wks...ya~ but....kinda sad~ >.< u noe y~ MY BIRTHDAY falls between the period... means...family may nt b celebrating for me.... *sob sob* coz too earli or too late may no longer b meaningful le.... but nvm...gt my frenz tgt...ya~ *sob sob*~
but ya~ meanwhile ganbette to everione! =]
4:36 AM
undiscovered photos
the YELLOWs~Rul~
ok~ by rite marc n haziq is tere...but they "SHY"
time at PIZZA HUT
the FRiENDS
gal gang ppl
Tuesday, November 25, 2008
7:07 PM
.:memories:.
yummy~!
our creation 'cheezy pizza'
SPEGATTI~
MUSHROOM SOUP! YUMMY~
O PIZZA~
ME~
CUTE CUTE~ =]
3:28 AM
.:my day:.
haha~ my day today~ erm... almost got murdered by smone~ ya~ who leh?? haha~ if u were in my modsim class...u noe who
haaha~ yup...went makan wif....chin, man, mel, marc, rul, haziq 2dae.. at PIZZA HUT again~ lol *love pizza hut* so much..lol~ yup~ btw~ gt a free ride bk sch by HAZIQ~ nt bad driving skills seh~ =]
hmm...let mi do a count... tis yr~ 5 frenz/colleage/teacher drove mi bk le... 1st is SyaSya~ 2nd is omg...forgt name...but is colleage....haha~ 3rd is stingy gege - u noe who... 4th is Mr Chan...and today...haziq~
lol~ had a GREAT laugh today~ ya and got more dumb...hit my head twice 2dae... [a way to grow taller] shh~ went archade play the sms game~ SO FUN! gt into 81st place~ LOL! yup~
guess i made Mr Chan abit :@ today~ coz kip play game... >.< next wk muz play less wk more le...
sadly tmr i gt cds~ if nt totali no nid go sch~ haix~ tmr aunt maid cming~ so kinda busi...yup...thurs oso~ haha~ i got SOOOOO mani things to do seh~ hais~ scare scare i cnnt finish~ i am SOOO BUSI~sob sob~ n oso~ scare i forgt~ haix haix~ =[
Monday, November 24, 2008
4:26 AM
~something really bad~
today i done smtin reali bad~ i make shah cry~ OH NO~! hmm...lucky it's resolved btw...2dae i been LOLing whole day...esp... PROCOI...we were playing dart~ and i throw n stick on mel...LOL~
haha...it stick...on her hair...shoes and belt...lol... chin is funnier...she threw on the left and right but nt the dart board~ hw sad~ LOL~
o btw~ haaha~ today really funny~ wished that 2dae cn b longer~ longer!!! haha~ ok nw nid study MSA le~ haha~
Friday, November 21, 2008
3:15 AM
.:MIXED:.
confuse...stress...worried...upset...happy...excited...surprised... m in a total MIXTURE now~
erm..how shud i put it...i duno~ sori...but i noe tis daes i been writing abt OSIP...yup~ nt to showoff i cn go...juz m reali at the border line which differentiate whether shud i go or not~
it's no longer frenship prob coz' i found a way to solve it... but now...it is whether i can cope...can take care of myself...can form group or not etc...and where i am goin...how abt my family? my pets? my friends? m so really afraid things will CHANGE when m away~ many things WILL change...it's TRUE~ >.<
it's goin to b lyk a sem time...i'll miss alot of things... when m back...could i still recognise this place?? lot's of thoughts been flying pass my mind these daes~ =.=
Thursday, November 20, 2008
3:21 AM
~u make mi think twice~
2dae smone make mi think twice... i reali wan go OSIP...but this smone is rite for one thing... he make mi think... which is more impt... frenship or OSIP?
i reali duno hw to ans... for one thing i noe~ i love all my frenz here... i dun wish to gv up frenship nw... yet m greedy~ i wan both~ 2 to 4 mths is reali long
i noe it's a great chance... but tis person told me... he gt frenz frm director's list gv up OSIP coz' of frenship...
i m reali in mixed feelings nw... CONFUSE and STRESS... cn my frenz ans the qn for me?? frenship or OSIP? hais... i noe~ chosing OSIP dun mean i loss all my frenz... but it mean i gt to abandon my frenz for a period of time and ya~ this is the last chance wking wif them isn't it??
please tell me the choice i shud make~ :(
Wednesday, November 19, 2008
1:57 AM
my emotions
hmm~ i feeling reali lucky~ though till nw...i still dun believe it... ling told mi~ m chosen for OSIP~ omg...haha~ heard it's confirm... vivian, cheryl, cai man, melissa, lestari and me...
I SO HAPPY~ but on the other hand...sad~ :'( coz' no shah~ hmm.... to shah~ will gona miss u~ :'( and chin oso~ =[
omg...but mi reali overjoyed.... reali....
Tuesday, November 18, 2008
4:21 AM
trip to pizza hut~ 18/11/08
chin's enjoying~ yum yum~
MEL's Enjoying~
YUMMY CHICKEN BBQ~
Yummy HAIWAIIAN PIZZA
BEFORE~ AFTER~
4:00 AM
tired~
many things happen this wk so far~
1stly chin wallet was stolen ytd... lost quite a sum of $$$ 2ndly i drp my wallet 2dae n a nice aunty pick up n gv to one lec... but~ my eazylink card went missing~ idiot~
then that gal...so rude to me... she ask mi bank in for her~ so i help...but i nt reali sure ma~ so she ask shah tell mi...then she sms mi "u get it?" i was quite :@ wif that msg...that i reply "u askin mi a favor please dun b so rude" aft sm time... i feel...i dun wan start a conflict so i apologise to her...over sms... guess wat?? she show shah the sms n sae " c la~ she everitime lyk that i nid tolerate her smtimes happi smtimes :@" when shah told mi this i am so piss off... please la~ dun tink she win man~ i juz dun wan blow up the matter so apologise~ she dun use 'the chicken feather n treat it as a granted sword' ji mao dang ling jian-> chinese phrase... means... use my apology as if she won n dare to tok loudly~
then i sms shah to mit her for lunchin 2dae coz' mel treated us to pizza hut n will ordered 4 ppl serving~ so ya~ invited shah~ but i nv tell that gal i mitting shah...neither do shah told her she mitting mi...but that asshole assume that i mitting shah n at pizza hut...n demanded shah to sms mi ask mi buy pizza for her... as if i wan do it lor...later she dun pay hw?? sm more when shah 'lied' to her sae she nt mittin mi...she still assume lor~ and show that super black face... who the hell she tinks she is?? as if shah wan eat wif her...
sm more it's so obvious she's tryin to replace mi in shah's life!!! she's lyk kol shah 11pm juz b4 shah's bdae sae wan ask shah for dinner on the bdae itself...and shah rejected then aft that she ask shah out for lunch on mon, shah oso rejected...then she bought shah a gift lor... super nice rite? SCARY~ and of coz she's super nice to me sm hw oso...she tis morning sms mi sae bored so wan chat~ then ytd was happy that i wif her till late nite...omg...SCARY! BUT please hor~ i wun change my point of view towards her...and so will shah~
n i 100% trust shah that...my position in her life wun b move by even a centimeter~ who cares whatever she does... coz' lyk wat i sae...u cn nv buy relationships!!! n she duno hw to treasure it~!
hmm~...yup... all i wanna say is... to... so and so...
aren't you tired of trying your best to replace me?? what so good about my position?? coz' i have friends? coz' i have strength? i duno...but all i cn say is...frenship u cnnt buy... rather all relationships u cnnt buy... think that gving others gift...ppl will lyk u?
frenship or ani relationships will oni exist if u treat others true to ur heart! not to buy things and bribe others.... and if you duno~ the most precious gift in relationships is the gift of trust... u throw it away once...we r the ones that gv u another chance...yet instead of getting better... u gt worse...
wat abt lying?? u live in a world of lies.... fairytale ya~?! think wat...we r dumb isit? dun u learnt ur lesson for once...no frenz since pri sch... i told ya directly during last sem...CHANGE for godness sake... now wat... lie to such an innocent fren of urs... o no...nt fren...she has nv wanted to b close to u~ u awaes assume...assume ppl lyk u... assume that we r dumbs and WILL fall for ur tricks again... please grow up for urself...
isn't it obvious? dun u noe hw to lie? ppl told ya off...juz apologise... dun u noe the courtesy to do so?? dare to tok bk when u r at fault....? u r hopeless man~ we cnnt stop frm making mistakes... but we ADMIT it at least... unlyk u~ ppl oready found out ur lies...yet u add more lies to it...u make mi HATE u~
shame on u~ reali~ i told myself forgv u for once...lyk wat i did to others... but u disappoints mi one more time...
cming to sch wif a black face in the morning... for wat seh? no one owns u ani $$$$... no one owns u a living~ for ppl dun tok to u~ dun u noe hw to find a topic to tok? tink wat? u the queen or princess or even smone famous?? once cm muz ask u for autograph...take pics wif u...tok to u...? dun u hv the initiative?? all u noe is to interrupt ppl while others toking~ dun u noe the word respect?? u r so RUDE~ and of coz irritating?~
do you really think you're in the position to get vexed? we shud b the one? u or me? lie to ppl...ppl discover ur lies and u dare to get vexed? for wat? for coz' we too clever we found out the truth?
cry out cry out? please grow up...crying dun solve problems....~ sm more the problem is u urself created! GET IT!
wat else?? hate ur own family? thinking that ur family issues is the greatest on earth??... please la~ u no nid compare too far... juz sae mi... u gt a happi family still...juz mummy nag n scold... whose mummy dun nag or scold?? but mi leh?? broken family ok?? i nv make a FUSS out of it~ juz mummy dun let u buy smtin...u cry n make noise??~ i gt a godsis... who lost her 2 sisters in an accident~ FOR GODNESS SAKE~ wake up...! u r blessed!
for one thing u shud learn... please learn hw to TREASSURE everitin ard u for once... and treat all TRUTHFULLY.... for lies cn nv bring u too far...
and u...always spoils our days~ wif ur glumpy black face... if i got gamble... or rather...if i waiting for sm gd news... i wuld hv gv u a tight slap.... please SMILE for once~
Saturday, November 15, 2008
9:53 PM
shopping~!!!
i wan go shopping!!! saw a skirt at bugis last wk wif shah~ oni $10... n it's nice...lyk double color~...but nv buy~ >.<
also...saw a tube brown color, silk material...oso oni $10... again nv buy~
i wan buy leh~ but ya~ 1st... no $$$... 2nd...later mum nag at mi again~ hais~ >.<
haha~ let's cross fingers...i found a boyfren soon~ XD he buy for me~ LOL!
ok~ i noe stop dreaming~ hahah~ but ya nvm...if nv buy tis time...gt chance de... will buy one day~ XD
some kind soul gv mi tis~ =]
orchard decor~
nice decor~ but my hp sux~ >.<
the smilies family~
juz happen to catch a performance at robinsons
nice tree at taka
mel~ =]
some pics i stole frm diff blogs...
my sec sch frenz =]
the YELLOWs~
Rul~
ok~ by rite marc n haziq is tere...but they "SHY"
time at PIZZA HUT
the FRiENDS
gal gang ppl
yummy~!
our creation 'cheezy pizza'
SPEGATTI~
MUSHROOM SOUP! YUMMY~
O PIZZA~
ME~
CUTE CUTE~ =] 
mi wif make up~
mi n shah at bugis~
@ pizza hut~
at shaw~
outside robinson orchard
SANTA at robinsons~
mi n mel @ booth~
this belongs to a salon
the cat near aunt's huse~
realise wat's on mel's head?
the pics below is frm shah's blog~ XD
