The First Time We Met

i've been thinking...and thinking.... and.....still thinking... (dun laugh worz)
but ya~ really think alot these days where i am realli free...surprise ya?
where gt chinese free on CNY?? i oni gamble a little on mon...today...2nd day of CNY is reali freeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.......

what i think? what i thought?
i suddenli think about my past, present and maybe future...
past... happy...innocent...cheerful....in primary sch....
sec sch...stressed...angry....tired.....
present.... blessed...happy...sad....scared....shocked....
future?? i hope to get a great husband...realli...i dun wan divorce...nt in my dictionary....
too mani people gt hurt when the family falls apart.... i dun wan that to happen...

and i thought about....my friends and family...
friends...do we all live wif a motive?? or we live juz for the sake of living...or or....for makin full use of life....
i noe mani mani people...that's true....but i realised...not all i can trust...not everione....
coz as time moves on...its so obvious sm people r reali makin use of me.... so nw...people who r v.close wif mi oni left wif 3...close friends...gt a few....the rest...juz wat i kol gd fren...n aft gd fren...left wif juz people...

well...life's lyk tat lor...everione lives wif smtin they want...and most of them...wat they want cm frm others...that's when they make use of others lor....

i wun sae i am nt...yes i do live wif a motive.... but
it dun cms frm anione of u out there....it comes within me....

n to these 3 special v.close frenz...tnk u for ur concern...help...care...love....and mani more...
for u r whom i trust...and oni u.... =]

as for my family....pretty upsetting....i dun feel lyk saying here...its too complicated....
i juz cursed those who do harm to my family will DIE immediately....
its too harsh...but...if oni world has no rules...i will 100% kill these people with my own hands....
but...laws apply...so let god give them their retribution! =[ as earli as possible...~ dun ever dream i will go to ur funeral...even though i have 25% DNA relation to u~ i rather u die wif no peace at all...no one go ur funeral...and worse...dun even have a full body... curse curse...i hate u! I REALLY HATE YOU! GO TO HELL!
to the person...if...if...if mummy got harm by ur bloody black magic...i'll make sure u dun see the sun rise tmr! even i dun kill u~ i dun harm u! i beg god...i beg fate...to kill u immediately!

3:36 AM

my CNY~

mi today~

mum n sis~

bro~

mi ytd~

my bag

mi n sis~

bro~

uncle gv us tis~

dad bought these

aunt's flowers

had renuion dinner at uncle huse~

Saturday, January 24, 2009

8:28 PM

HAPPY CNY 2009!

some random pics to kip my non-chinese fren companied...haha~

the guys~ =]

my pets~

the black and whitez

cannt c me =[

the scenary outside TP quite nice~

these r nice~ =]

@ seah st~

nice CAR!!!!

got this rose frm someone...ahhem~ nt a guy wor....is a fren of mine~ GAL!

sis and teddy~

guess wat....mum and sis caught it wif $2 at tampinese archade!!!!!

omg~ can u believe i lucky they were....haha~

and way happy CNY to my chinese frenz...and happy holidays to non-chinese frenz....

wat abt CNY tis yr?? erm...i duno yet~ yet to noe...but tis yr lesser hong bao coz' 1 family cnnt visit...they gt smone die last yr~

aniway...2dae is eve of CNY gona go uncle huse later for renuion dinner~ best time of the yr~!!!! =] time for all come tgt as 1.... =]

but sadli mum kip sae...'v.sian....nthin special....' make mi oso no mood le... haix.... =[

but still...i muz b happi on tis yr though...my family is no longer as 1 still at least i noe all of us still FINE and doing GREAT! and that all of them r right beside me...i had nt lost them! =] i happi enf...nt too greedy~ all i wanna sae is...i love whoever i noe...including U who's reading my blog! =]

good yr ahead....

best of health...fortune...happiness....and mani mani more~ =]

once again...HAPPY CNY!!! love ya~ =]

Thursday, January 22, 2009

3:51 AM

stressed.... .... ....

i am breaking down some how...thanks to smone...
haix...haix...haix...
thought nw new yr...shud b slightly luckier....but my projects r reali giving mi a real headache...
y no one is reali doin it??

i been hands on since couple of wks ago on a diff proj...everiday stress stress stress.....
nw...another proj...i got ppl to help at least...i did the online order form...but...wat abt the rest...?
can't they b slightly more independent and help in doin the database....??
i've downloaded all sorts of programs into my PC however i duno hw to use ani of them....
haix haix haix....
i not god...neither m i genius...y kip depending on me...expecting that i cn gv u an A? all i cn promise u is a grp...nt the results.... for resuls...we need group work...my effort alone is insufficient....

wat else u expect from me?? i kind enf to take the initiative to find everitin we nid...at least i get things started and almost complete....but...wat have u all been doin?? have u all even tried to do at home??? we nt oni doin on one proj...we gt 2 to go...if i doin tis...y cn't u ppl get started on the other...? why muz u wait?? we dun hv much time...
i said i will try to do...but even typin in data is so diff for u~ i hv no choice but to say i do....

wat else...u ppl noe jolly well i dun have a laptop...lending a laptop is so difficult to some of u...sm more...its our project...nt for fun...its WORK! i noe u hv a reason...but can't u c....project as a reason is more impt than the reason u gv mi??
y am i always settling things on ur behalf?? can't u ppl TRY at least??

i tnk sm of u for at least a little help in previous project...but...tat dun mean everitin...everi project u shud help too...n nt juz a bit....i one person is doin a grp work....i am STRESS and TIRED....dun noe is not an excuse....duno then ask ard...research ard....i did tat~ no nid go into bks...online oso cn~....

i can't be nagging at u ppl as all of us r grown up...n i believe u ppl cn try to put in ur initiative.... i tried to kip u ppl up to date but it nids both party to put in a slight effort...even by simply askin hw's the progress of everitin...anitin nid my help....etc....i am real busi...as u noe CNY is cmin... i mayb STM at times...when u ask...at least it reminds mi to tell u...wat cn u do...

for the 1st time i stayed so late in sch for proj....and been wks since the last time i slept earli....coz'....doin projects~ =[ hate life now....

i noe smone who reading this post may show it to some one related...but to whoever it is... i am juz expressing my stress here...realli STRESSED~ and if u tink u r related then please start helping me now and urself too...reali much appreciated..........

Tuesday, January 20, 2009

6:40 AM

GREAT NEWS

guess i've forgotten to inform the WORLD! i changed my handphone!!!

to samsung F480!! cool man~ love it so muchy~! i bought at oni $88!!!!!! hurray!

my ideal handphone!!! =]

Monday, January 19, 2009

7:23 PM

~ STOLEN ~

we went bk ao ancient time~ =]